Hello people! 🙂

I’ve been meaning to write about this, especially when I discovered it is actually a thing…Do you ever feel like not picking up calls, or do you never call people – friends, family, just really anybody? Well that’s my story.

Some wise person said “admitting there’s a problem is the first step to solving it”…and I’m not just about to ramble on and on about the pathetic story of a lone girl, existing in her own world with no telephones…no, no, no, I wouldn’t do that, no…

Well, sharing a little wouldn’t hurt right? Okay, thank you… well it hadn’t always been this way, at least not before I got a phone, it just happened all of a sudden – the reluctance, the seeming burden, the rush-through-a-phone-conversation syndrome, the I think I know what he’s about to say and so I won’t pick up feeling…countless times I’ve heard friends say ‘Bukunmi, you know you don’t deserve a phone right?’, ‘remember it’s called a MOBILE PHONE, it’s designed to help people reach you anytime!’, and the more funny remark made by a lovely friend ‘I only hope you haven’t flushed your phone down the toilet’- or something along those lines. It was my sister and I together in this seeming predicament, that was before, now she’s left me to my fate a long time ago,  and now she joins the host of others to say ‘Bukunmi, for God’s sake, just pick up, it’s just a phone call not some terrorist waiting on the other line to blow you up’, okay, I inferred some of that. Anyway, the point is I deliberately don’t pick calls most of the time (why do I feel like I’m doing some sort of confession or apology to someone), some people say its wicked, some say it downright silly, others term it annoying (I agree it is annoying), but what if I can’t help it!

It’s been a long long while, years maybe…so many have decided not to call anymore (I mean what’s the point), others resolve to sending messages (and that doesn’t solve it either, though its better), some I told to pray for me (I know, it’s that bad), and some, well they just call and hope she’ll pick. Now anytime I happen to pick up, instead of a hello, most times I hear, ‘wow, I didn’t think you’ll pick’.

:-), this is not meant to be some pathetic tale, like I said earlier, but I can’t help but feel a sad texture to it. I haven’t particularly considered it’s grave implications…but a number of well meaning individuals (who told me it’s weird and strange and unusual) had pointed it out to me, ‘what if it was a life and death situation, or an emergency?’, and well, I’ve always had some witty comebacks (I’ll rather not say haha). Now that I’m seriously considering this as an actual problem, I googled it, and discovered that it is, actually, a thing, “telephone apprehension”

I am a people person, I love meeting people and making friends, but maybe this is a character defect, maybe this is something I’m allowing to happen, maybe its fate, maybe it can be changed…maybe not, I really do not know. People have called me unyielding, unapologetic and unserious for this…maybe I am *sigh*

Haha that was a big fat joke! (no it wasn’t), I hope with loads of help that I’ll figure this out :-)…in the mean while, this goes to everyone, ‘I love you all, my actions may not show it…its true that I’m always replying messages in my head and its so silly that I wouldn’t pick up, but deep down, I always remember…